Creative processes...

...result in illness.
Out of the comfort box I was ready to step and share a poem at the Friends Poetry Reading. What happens? I end up with a stomach virus the kept me in the bathroom for over 5 hours. (I know TMI) But since I didn't get to read my poem in front of the few Library Friends in the audience I thought I would post it here on my blog where anyone with the misfortune of finding my blog can read it.

ESCAPE
by Cheryl Lucas

School
Job
Housework
I Escape

Illness
Pain
Death
I Escape

Taxes
War
Politicians
I Escape

Loneliness
Fear
Anger
I Escape

When life is too much
or not enough
I escape...
In a book

Feeling good...

...in the neighborhood. Life is full of ups and downs and right now I'm feeling pretty up. I thought for a while that I was going to lose all my young nieces and nephews as their families moved away but I only lost half of them.

The girls are still living next door and visit often (maybe not as often as their parents might wish) and it's good to have them near. While I don't have any of my own I still enjoy brief moments with other people's kids.

It may be the sunshine adding to my good mood or maybe the fact that the boss has been gone all week. Maybe it's the fact that I feel like I'm back on the weight-loss road or or maybe my happy pills are working. (Does Vitamin D3 keep working even when the sun is out?) Love God, Love Family & Love Myself. Life is good!

I'm tired...

... of dieting, exercising, making good choices and being disciplined. Is it to much to ask for one day a week to do, eat, say and go where and what I want to without any consequences? I totally agree that adulthood is overrated.

I don't want to be a kid again I would just like to feel like one for 24 hours.

Never Give Up, Never Give Up, Never Give Up...

...no matter what! Binging without purging does not lead to weight-loss and binging and purging destroys your health so what is a person to do when they need to lose weight but can't stop binge eating? Knowledge alone is not helping the matter and how do you find will-power over something that controls you because you can't control it.
My next step is to create a list of distractions for when the cravings hit and see if I can distract myself long enough for the bizarre gorging fit to pass.